Complete Noob

The struggle is real! Its been over 25 years since I really felt the grips of learning a new language. Frustrations of my current situation are being handled far less gracefully than I remember. Stuck for 2 weeks on the same problems is killing my focus and drive with little reprieve in sight. 

At the beginning I was learning at a good pace and expected to continue, or even accelerate. This has not been the case for a variety of reasons. 

If it was easy everyone would do it. I knew this going in but forgot along the way only to pull myself out of a learning pit recently and looking back at what my expectations were, are and should be. How long it will take and how long I think it should take did not line up. How would I know how long it would take to learn something like this, it has been 25 years since doing anything remotely similar. I also was trying to breeze through lessons that I thought were going to be rarely used. Again, how would I know that? They reared their barely considered heads in full force and put me into a whirlwind of confusion, that I couldn't even explain in the most basic of terms why I wasn't understanding the material. 

Self training comes with these hazards and stumbling blocks that test the willpower of the learner. Regrouping and coming up with solutions is the only way out of the tail spin created by internal preconceptions that pan out to be wrong. Doing a section over again will need to be done for a few of the concepts to get them ingrained. 

We all create some sort of self image that we are so focused on achieving that we may forget to actually do what is needed to get there. I have replotted my learning efforts so that they lie more inline with reality of learning a language, allowing for many more drills when needed and not moving on until I get that A+ or 100% understanding of the concepts that are essential. So off to the grindstone to put my nose to it and work through these modules that I took for granted.